Today while sailing on the tranquil high seas, I decided to go in the galley and get the binoculars. As I got back up on the deck, I lifted them to my eyes, and scanned the horizon in front of me. With nothing but sea gulls to view, and them with difficulty because they swoop and go so fast, I happened to see another ship.
Wondering if it was the ship of my true love, I zoomed in closer, and found out that it was. I didn't see the captain anywhere in sight, but I did see what looked like a woman, and it seemed like my love was looking at her intently. With my heart beating in fear, my countenance fell. Realizing that I was, at this moment, if only in my thoughts, taking my love back from where I had loosed him to, (the arms of our Captain) I calmed down, because I truly did not want to do this anymore.
After I calmed down, another thought came to me. Didn't his ship have a mermaid on the hoist of his ship? And could this be "the woman" I thought he was looking at? Because his ship was so far from mine, I really couldn't tell if he was looking "intently" at the statue, or just looking out to sea. That is how fear and jealousy work together, and I felt sad, but yet glad, too, that it was revealed to me that something ugly was still in me, and best of all, that I knew the One who could do something about it.
I ran to my Captain! He was confidently at the helm, and looked lovingly at me when I appeared. "What's the trouble, my maiden?" He asked, although He knew.
"I have fear and jealousy in my heart, Captain, O Captain," I answered sadly.
"You have come to Me, for healing?" He asked.
"Yes, my Lord, I hate it, and I want to be free," I retorted.
"Then give him back to me again," He advised.
"How do I do that if I have taken from You after I had loosed him to you at first? I asked sincerely. Do I get another chance?"
" It is through the path of confession, my Love, He directed lovingly. This path remains open to you time and time again."
"I am sorry, my Captain. I didn't want to do it, but I did, and now I regret it. Please forgive me," I said penitently.
"I see that your heart is true, and because you have run into my arms with your sin, and want to be cleansed, then I do forgive you and you will be cleansed," He declared as He gently touched my upper chest. I felt the warmth of His healing Hand infuse me and almost fell to the ground.
As I grasped His hand on me, as if not wanting it to ever be removed, I exclaimed gratefully,"Oh, thank you, my King, for it is You alone who can grant it to me, as it is You I have sinned against," I replied. "Will this happen anymore? Is it gone for good?"
"It may be that it will happen again, but it doesn't have to," He said.
"Well, how can I prevent it? How can I control it? It comes on me like a bird of prey, haunting and taunting me," I said desperately.
"Trust me," He said simply.
"Oh, my Lord," I said with surprise," you mean, whenever I feel this way, it is I that opens the door to these feelings of fear and jealousy because I am not trusting You?"
"Yes, that's true," He said, feeling for my own sadness. "Whenever you see something or think you see something, you interpret it in fear, which you think is protecting you from something that is going to sneak up on you. You think, 'if I see it coming, I won't be hurt,' This is not true, my daughter. You are only hurting yourself, your true love, Me, and all relationships when you allow these thoughts in."
"Then how do I "not allow" them in?"
"When you are afraid, trust in Me instead," He stated.
"You mean, it's alright to be afraid, as long as I turn my fears, or loose them to You?" I asked quizzically.
"Right. Like you did this time," He stated. "When you calmed down, you could then hear my voice that reminded you of the statue on your true love's ship. Before that you were allowing your fearful thoughts to take over, and you couldn't hear me," He explained.
"I thought those were my thoughts," I declared.
"We are becoming one, my daughter. You have my mind, but many times you use your old carnal mind, which is devilish; always thinking the worst against yourself. But when you rest in Me, my mind filters through you and you are able to think my thoughts, although it seems like your own," He revealed.
"Oh my," I said in awe.
"Go back to the deck now, my precious girl. That is enough for now," He directed with knowledge and wisdom of my frame.
I suddenly found myself peacefully doing as He told, and when I rounded the corner and went to the back of the ship where I had left my binoculars, I saw the most beautiful sunset I had ever seen in my life! It was like the sky and the sea were ablaze with His glory!!!
Wondering if it was the ship of my true love, I zoomed in closer, and found out that it was. I didn't see the captain anywhere in sight, but I did see what looked like a woman, and it seemed like my love was looking at her intently. With my heart beating in fear, my countenance fell. Realizing that I was, at this moment, if only in my thoughts, taking my love back from where I had loosed him to, (the arms of our Captain) I calmed down, because I truly did not want to do this anymore.
After I calmed down, another thought came to me. Didn't his ship have a mermaid on the hoist of his ship? And could this be "the woman" I thought he was looking at? Because his ship was so far from mine, I really couldn't tell if he was looking "intently" at the statue, or just looking out to sea. That is how fear and jealousy work together, and I felt sad, but yet glad, too, that it was revealed to me that something ugly was still in me, and best of all, that I knew the One who could do something about it.
I ran to my Captain! He was confidently at the helm, and looked lovingly at me when I appeared. "What's the trouble, my maiden?" He asked, although He knew.
"I have fear and jealousy in my heart, Captain, O Captain," I answered sadly.
"You have come to Me, for healing?" He asked.
"Yes, my Lord, I hate it, and I want to be free," I retorted.
"Then give him back to me again," He advised.
"How do I do that if I have taken from You after I had loosed him to you at first? I asked sincerely. Do I get another chance?"
" It is through the path of confession, my Love, He directed lovingly. This path remains open to you time and time again."
"I am sorry, my Captain. I didn't want to do it, but I did, and now I regret it. Please forgive me," I said penitently.
"I see that your heart is true, and because you have run into my arms with your sin, and want to be cleansed, then I do forgive you and you will be cleansed," He declared as He gently touched my upper chest. I felt the warmth of His healing Hand infuse me and almost fell to the ground.
As I grasped His hand on me, as if not wanting it to ever be removed, I exclaimed gratefully,"Oh, thank you, my King, for it is You alone who can grant it to me, as it is You I have sinned against," I replied. "Will this happen anymore? Is it gone for good?"
"It may be that it will happen again, but it doesn't have to," He said.
"Well, how can I prevent it? How can I control it? It comes on me like a bird of prey, haunting and taunting me," I said desperately.
"Trust me," He said simply.
"Oh, my Lord," I said with surprise," you mean, whenever I feel this way, it is I that opens the door to these feelings of fear and jealousy because I am not trusting You?"
"Yes, that's true," He said, feeling for my own sadness. "Whenever you see something or think you see something, you interpret it in fear, which you think is protecting you from something that is going to sneak up on you. You think, 'if I see it coming, I won't be hurt,' This is not true, my daughter. You are only hurting yourself, your true love, Me, and all relationships when you allow these thoughts in."
"Then how do I "not allow" them in?"
"When you are afraid, trust in Me instead," He stated.
"You mean, it's alright to be afraid, as long as I turn my fears, or loose them to You?" I asked quizzically.
"Right. Like you did this time," He stated. "When you calmed down, you could then hear my voice that reminded you of the statue on your true love's ship. Before that you were allowing your fearful thoughts to take over, and you couldn't hear me," He explained.
"I thought those were my thoughts," I declared.
"We are becoming one, my daughter. You have my mind, but many times you use your old carnal mind, which is devilish; always thinking the worst against yourself. But when you rest in Me, my mind filters through you and you are able to think my thoughts, although it seems like your own," He revealed.
"Oh my," I said in awe.
"Go back to the deck now, my precious girl. That is enough for now," He directed with knowledge and wisdom of my frame.
I suddenly found myself peacefully doing as He told, and when I rounded the corner and went to the back of the ship where I had left my binoculars, I saw the most beautiful sunset I had ever seen in my life! It was like the sky and the sea were ablaze with His glory!!!
I then lifted my binoculars and saw my true love's ship in view. The very same Captain was sailing his ship too, and His arm was around my true love, as he stood there strongly. It was a sight to behold; one I had longed to see for a long time. It was a prayer answered. Peace was reigning again. 
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